Passion Project

After watching the Passion Project in class I started think about my experience in the classroom.I had an opportunity to go to college but I only lasted one semester. I was confused and lost and undecided. I dropped out and started working two jobs to support myself. It was very difficult, I knew i didn't want to work like this forever, but I had no idea what I wanted to do. I felt like I wasn't achieving anything because I wasn't working toward any goals. When I was about 25 I decided to go back to school but how? I looked up community college, I had to figure in money into my new venture, and time that I needed to study but still maintain work. I thought about and made a decision to live back at home with my parents in order to make this work. So I didn't go back to school until I was 27. I had to tell my job to put me as part time so I could have time to go to school. So I'm at Chabot and last year I was still trying to figure out what I wanted to go. And last semester I made my decision that I want to  be an accountant. I love numbers and money and I'm doing very well in that department. I like formulas and solving problems. I learned a lot about myself more in one year at school than 10 years just working and being unhappy at work. I have a great job that pays my bills but I want more, I want to achieve more, and I want meaning to have a purpose at work. 
   

    This happens a lot in a classroom students don't want to speak up because they are afraid of getting the answer wrong or they simply to do know. We do see our teacher as the enemy because we think that all he wants to do is see us fail us against the teacher. I think us students need to be reassured that our teacher is there for us, to teach us, and to open our minds to a world that we aren't to sure of. A teacher should be encouraging and enthusiastic to teach and talk to students, he/she is supposed to guide us and help us get to the next phase of our lives. A student should be ready to learn and have questions to better understand material and be in the classroom to listen. Students should want to speak up and also be enthusiastic to learn. History by far is the most boring subject to me ever! I think its useless and I won't use this in my career but i need to care about it because I want a good grade because if I don't pass this subject I will have to take it again. So I make sure I take a 5 hour energy drink, I have water with me and I have questions that I had on the reading and hopefully that keeps me engaged with the material. But as a student I have to be willing to work at school as much as a teacher is to teach their subject. 

  To me it was always work, work, work, and pay bills. I want to be financially stable and not live paycheck to paycheck. "You must work to make money to buy luxuries that you must have then make more money to keep the luxuries that you must have." -Passion Project I felt like I wasn't getting anywhere in life. I was always in the same place having the same conversation, doing the same thing. It gets boring, it gets frustrating and I had to change that. And I did I had to think about what I want to do but I want to be. I'm going to be 30 oh so very soon and I don't want to be in the same place I was in my 20's. I want to grow and to become a person. 
      I'm the eldest in my family I have 4 younger brothers and a sister and I feel like its my duty to be something they can aspire to. To know that if I can do it they can do it. I want them to know that yes its hard but if you really want it nothing even paying bills can stop you and that I am willing to help them too. To get to this stage of my life was rough, I definitely went the hard way and the long way, but to me I think it was worth it. I am more focused and I don't take learning for granted. I try my best in school and go everyday because I am the one paying for this so I take school seriously. "It's something that drives you, excites you, makes you feel good."-Passion Project Even though I exhausted in the morning because I work from 530-1030 at night and I have to be at school at 8AM I do it because like I said before I want this with every being of my heart, body and soul and nothing not money, not sleep, not love for another person will stop me because this is my time and this is what I want.